Meepeths~! Its been a while neh?! Been so busy with...stuff. Swimming- I'm failing miserably in.  But its all really a war against my own willpower.  Which.. I am lacking in.  Skipped 4 practices in a row...so that means I get kicked outta tomorrow's meet.  I think I sabotaged myself though. Last week's meet still has me traumatized, I believe... and I jsut really want to quit.  But in the end, I know i'll regret it anyways.  So... I will try to keep at it, neh! ^.^  I do like swimming i think.  I think.. Afterall... everyone keeps saying how its such a waste to be so "good" at it and give up.  Truthfully, its just not my passion.  I don't even know what is anymore. 

Probably drawing.  *bapt'd* But I'm not getting anywhere.

I hardly get any good drawing practice- since they're all little doodles squeezed in here and there- constantly hiding from my parents, under a mathbook or quickly flashed in then out, into the drawer, onto the floor... no wonder my sketchbooks are always so battered.

Talked to my art teacher again...just for fun.  And she comments again about how she wants me to me in her AP art class.  I'd love to.  Sounds like a lot of fun.  But then the reality of it all catches up to me.  I'm busy. I don't have time. I can't.

I've been feelign really down and "emo" recently... o.o;  Maybe not emo, but sad, yes.  I can't seem to decide on anything nor accomplish much. I'm barely scrapping through as it is.  Then Life calls upon me to face God.  Lord, no! >.>

I've haven't had TIME to be a good Christain.  Church, even thinking about Him... Ah... Why hs my mind been so cluttered? And why am i so stressed? T.T 

Stolen off someon

1-21 - Ghetto
22-30 - Average
31-40 - Spoiled
41+ - FILTHY RICH

I have a..

[x] mother
[x] father
[x] brother
[x] sister
[] nephew
[] niece
[X] Cell phone
[x] Own bathroom
[x] Own room
[x] 2 story house
[] Swimming pool
[x] Guest room
[x] laptop/desktop in your room
[] TV in your room
TOTAL: 10

[x] full or bigger bed
[x] More than 5 pairs of shoes
[x] sunglasses/shades
[x] watch
[x] mp3 player/iPod
[] ps2
[] Xbox 360
[] nintendo DS or PSP
[x] Gameboy Advance
[x] gamecube
TOTAL: 7

[] basketball hoop
[] Air hockey table
[] Pool table
[] Ping pong table
[x] foosball table
[] Trampoline
[x] Own a surfboard/wakeboard/snowboard/skateboard/bodybaord
[x] own an instrument
TOTAL: 3

[x] Nightstand
[x] Stereo in bedroom
[] DVD player in room
[] Have something from abercrombie and fitch or hollister
[] Gets $100+ every month
[] Shops at AE
[] Owns a Gucci , Dooney & Bourke, Louis Vuitton, Coach, Guess,Dulce and Gabana something
[] wears Lacoste
[] parents let you use their credit card
TOTAL: 2

O_o;;; 40.. i
[] job
[x] Goes shopping at least once a week
[] Expensive ->cologne/perfume
[x] AIM
[x] Camera
TOTAL: 3

[] electric/gas scooter
[x] Guitar/drums/Bass guitar
[x]piano/keyboard
[x] Any other instrument
[] Hammock
[x] Been on a cruise.
[x] traveled out of the state
[] Personal trainer
[] expensive jewelry
[] Met a celebrity
[] Knows a celebrity
TOTAL: 5

[] Straightener/curling iron
[] Been to a batting cage
[] $100+ on you right now
[] Credit card or atm card,debit card
[] Been to Europe
[] Been to Hawaii
[x] Been to NYC
[] Been to Chicago
[x] Been to California (i live here... O_o;)
[] Been to Florida
[ ] Been to Mississippi
[ ] Been to the Bahamas
TOTAL: 2

[x] car (parent's car? XD)
[x] Pet
[ ] Ranch or cabin
[x] been to 10+states in the US
[x] 100+ buddies on myspace
[ ] more than one house
TOTAL: 4

[x] home cooked meal almost every day
[x] Been in a limo
[x] Been in a helicoptor
[x] Own a camcorder
[ ] Own a laptop
TOTAL: 4
 

O_o;; 40... Waiii..  i am NOT spoiled... T_T;;; i dont think... How does having a mother/father/siblings contribute to how ..."rich" one is?? O_o;; wierd.

Thea's Birthday is coming up soon, October 16th to be exact.  I'm hellbent on doing my very best piece for her  big 17th... ((she has this gryphon fetish <3 )) cept i can't get the anatomy down.... I was never very good at hawks nor lions... put them together and we get... WTF? Neh... But for my beloved...I'll try ^_^;;

Today and this whole week was crappy and the week before that and the one before that... Overlaod... DIOSMIOS. A truckload of math is normal, but... All of a sudden Weber packs on the essays. Then Holcombe kicks it up a notch. And all of a sudden i'm falling behind in Art too... WTF?!  Then there's the PSAT thingy... And Brainchild... T_T;;;  

More stress, as if my life weren't a wreck already... Stupid dog contracted fleas... and now i'm infected as well. My body has bites all over and i can't even sleep in my own bed.  The last time i did, i could feel invisible beings skittering across my flesh then a prick.  A bite! I left the spot where i was bitten and got an immediate lil bump thingy... reallllly itchy and stuff.. T_T; I don't know how to get rid of them... I put that medication on Cirrus already... but what about te ones in my room?! I miss my bed terribly.

My routine:
*Jolted up in the morning...drag self outta bed. Get dressed.
*Get dropped off a block away from school due to heavy traffic. Walk the dreaded block to school.
*So.... then i have to come across YOU_KNOW_WHO... DiosMios.. ~_~;; Y ya se dijiste  no te amo... perro el siempre molestarme... POR QUE?!  Ai... el no mal.... peroo. No se @_@; lol!
First block- hm... Mr.Del is a kewl teacher.. but he got sick on Monday... and was absent tuesday and came back in a TERRIBLE mood... @_@;; During those days there were no jokes nor laughter... T_T;; ITs was wierd.. PMS... XD And... we had a test today. i was freaking out about it... but it turned out to be realllly easy.  ^_^ so i'm happy bout that part..
Bad news: Remember yesterday?! Henry was helping me with that EVIL math homework.. stayed up till forever doing it... then i had my english project due the next day as well.... So... @_@;;; After all teh husstle and bustle... i finally got everything done and dragged my saelf to NOT MY BED >_>;; ebil fleas.. T_T;;; but yeah... Figures.. all my hard work for nothing... SIEMPRE~! I misplaced teh first page of my 4 pages Math hw... >_>;;;; so... *headesk* And ... yeah... The english was all intact though- thankfully ^_^;;

ART- ............ What can i say.....? I still have NO friends in this class.. it is a nightmare. @_@;;; That fat lard doesn't pester me anymore, not as much, is is annoying nonetheless. ((Did i mention that i totally miss Thea soooo much?! T_T;; i haven't talked to her for soooo long... T_T;; Hope you are well, Thea!!)) Yeah... os today... we had the momotonous task of doing the pictures of a "tool" - i dont even know what mine was.... an old styled...lighter? a candle puter-outer? XDD but he thin lines were near impossible to shade. The whole project was to emphasize shading and highlites... etc... but with CHARCOAL! kewlness ^_^ Neh. i finished early and was uber bored.. so i foudn a National Geographic revista and found an article with pretty birdies in it ofr me to draw... *_* i think i'm getting better at it... I was practicing wings and beak specifically for Thea's Present... oooo ^_^;;; I asked Ms.Browns opinion on is.. and she really liekd it ^_^;; yay! She mentions AP Art...? Hehehh.. ^_^;

Lunch... DIOSMIOS... I was bitch to Jeremiah again ^_^;; Kinda regret it... *sigh* FEHhhh... So... somehow.. he got the notion that i ws giving hims a "second chance" (he never really had a first one @_@;) and was like " i'll see you at lunch. For someone that claims to like me... he never comes up to me, never talks to me and has only told me he loved me... ONLINE. WTF?  I do NOT like this dude... He has no sensitivity, no literacy, and can't understand anything i say.  We can't havea a decent intellegent converstation or even a pleasant one.. >_>;; which makes me feel more bitchy.   That was...last night...? so before that ,Thurs, He promised to meet me at Keyclub.  I don't give a ... >_>;;; Of course i saw Ben.. but Jeremiah aka Hikouki, didn't show... It was wierd... Bend and Hii-kun are liek best friends rite...? and That BEN is all into my sister.. EWWWWWWWWWWWW @_@ *spaz*  but i keept catching him glaring at me.... OMFB. Henry was there and i had fun eating his pizza.. XDD MUAHAAa... lol And Kim and KAra... we going to the library for community service tomorrow... ebil keyclub... XD so... After school, Amanda was liek.. iono ....appallled at Ben.. XD She was like " Ben kept asking me if you liked Henry."  And i was like *headesk*  >_>;; Stupid Hii-kun got Ben all over my case. and fore the FINAL time.. HENRY IS JUST A FRIEND!! the yare sooo annnoying.. >_>;;;  And possessive for a guy that 's is NOT my boyfriend... i don't like him at all. He's jsut SOOO far from what i want in my ideal beloved... like Thea is hte perfect example... too bad she's a girl.. T_T;;

So....ENGLISH: .........................@#$^@%@&%*@%SNFDHBBTABZTDRSH h gaaeb ((my bad... don't click that... XDD))

That evil studyquestion thing... drains all the energy from me... not like i had muc hto begin with.  Where did all my hyperness go...? T_T; i really want to try my best.. but... It doesn' tinterst me... Teh writing prompts, i like ! and stuff.. i like writing.. eng is me fave~! then art... etc... but.. iono... maybe its just because its right after lunch etc? XD neh... i've many peopel i know in that class this time.. i should be happy... but i seem to be unable to to connect with them...iono... i just... There's Wendy, Geneva, Angelica, Amber, Bethal, Michelle,  Mario, Micheal, David, and jsut so many people i know.. but... i feel distant... i dont' really know them. i ...

Science:  Ah.. here we go. typical misery. New teacher. Wierd tactics.  I know peeps in this class as well. Ther'e the Winniful, Peter-head, Leslie, ...yar and more, but i feel lazy... its too much effort to pick up my stubby oencil and write the answers to things i know for sure in my head... i could say it... but writing.... plus my handwriting is horrifying.. XD  same in english.. i wish i culd jsut type everything i wanna say and be done with it. Typing hurts less than writing... X3 I finally get home... its Friday.  and... I start on work... but... i'm jsut so tried of workingth e whole day. Swamped with everything... (to be continued i've ranted  for too long @_@))

Ah...yesterday's Animecon was fun! Yesh..surprisingly fun! XD After THAT incident... well i almost feel silly about being irate! ALMOST >_>;;; *grumble*  Anyways... i found a replacement buddy to go with me to Japantown! yayness~! I KNEWWWW Parfait-butt was gunna ditch me.. T_T; Henry went with me instead! yay for non-lonerism! XDD

Bought a Loveless manga... Yay! *_* and AMANDA LEARNED SOMETHING NEW TODAY!!!! She found out what "Yaoi" ment... XDDDDDDD W00t!

I consider myself and optimistic person and I rarely get bad days- not that unforunateness doesn’t bite me as well. (Heh. Inside joke. Bite=mosquitoes… >_<) I rarely have bad days where I look upon the world as cruel and inhospitable.  But I have been proven wrong!

Isn’t it ironic? That my favorite subject of all time, Art, is my LEAST favorite class?!  It’s not because of the material, but because of the people in it! Or lack of… >_>;   I have none of my friends in there… nor are there any of the “kinds” of people I usually go and befriend.  Yesh, I am picky! I would only go and befriend respectable people.  RESPECTABLE! You see. There’s this moron that sits right across from me, at my table.  Not only is he the type I’d usually go and ignore (which I do) but THIS particular specimen is loud and annoying…  When he’s not being reprimanded by the teacher, he enjoys making snide remarks and being and idiot. 

Note this: I do not even know this bitch; I haven’t even done anything to him. >_> But yet he enjoys pestering me with a passion.  It’s actually quite funny when I think about it now.  As if he were all tough, he talks shit about random people in the class- especially those allll the way across the room so there is zero chance of them hearing him! XD   And he “Thinks” he’s dissing them directly.  Snickering with a similar minded fool who unfortunately sits at our table also…  So. What really gets me annoyed is when he turns his attention to me- who ish totally trying to ignore this bastard >_>;  Alllllllll fucking class period he goes “You is a bitch.”  Like, 50 times in a row, I swear!  I mean if you’re gunna cuss at least use it in some form of worthwhile context~! The more I try to ignore the stupidity the more enthralled he becomes in my tolerance.